Amongst Tears

With tear stained cheeks and blurry eyes; a state of which I often hate. I cry out, I plead, grasp for hope. I know He hears me. I know He sees the pain.

Why do I doubt? Why do I fear? Why do I allow this heaviness to trample me?

I knew this journey would be tough; I knew it would require much hope and even more faith. But I didn't expect to feel this struggle - to feel like everything was crumbling around me. I not only feel stretched, but pulled and tugged to the limit.

I know that I am not alone. I know my Savior has not forsaken me. He is my comforter, my all. He is my strength and my shield. He leads me and prepares my heart. He cares for His beloved.

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Dearest loved ones, would you please keep me in your prayers? Would you please pray a hedge of protection over me, the rest of my time here in NC and the new season in which God is leading me?
I knew before making the decision to move to Washington that it would be super hard; both in severing ties here and also venturing to the unknown, but I had no idea it would this treacherous... I feel like every time I turn around I am being attacked. I'm starting to feel the stress of it all and well, I'm just not sure how much more I can handle. I was so hoping to go out to Seattle recharged and ready to serve, but at this point I just feel drained and in need of stillness and quiet waters. Your prayers would be cherished.

Dwelling In Faith

Do you ever want to just turn off your brain and click this magical button that allows you to trust God wholeheartedly? Sounds a bit absurd, I know, but that's exactly what I've been wishing for the last few days.

It is so easy to get wrapped up in the things of this world and fret over what is or isn't happening. But why? God continually takes care of us. I know that when I trust in Him and walk in faith, those are the moments that I am most satisfied. So why do I stress? Why do I become so fixated on a single desire or a single speed bump and begin to take matters into my own hands? Doing so will not satisfy me, nor will it establish peace in my life...

"Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again - rejoice! Let everyone see that you are considerate in all you do. Remember, the Lord is coming soon. Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4:4-7

I want to live out this scripture. I do not want worry. I want to trust God wholeheartedly, even if it means Him having me on a roller-coaster and changing up my plans or not revealing details. I want to live by faith. I want to surrender my fears and my doubts, and live a life that's full of God's peace.

"I pray that out of His glorious riches He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." Ephesians 3:16-19


What a beautiful prayer that Paul prayed over the people in Ephesus. I want to echo it not only for myself, but for all my loved ones as well.

Be blessed all you wonderful blog readers :)

Cheers!

Rachel Grace