Reminiscent

If you were to ask me to describe the last few days in one word, I would choose the word "reminiscent." I have flipped through photo boxes & albums, reread journal entries, pulled down old paintings & drawings, reorganized my memory-box, and so much more. Why the sudden urge to ramble through things of the past? I'm not really sure. I think I was secretly trying to rediscover something that would make me laugh or smile, but most of all, discover something that would inspire me. I had been feeling like I wasn't utilizing gifts & talents that I knew I had. For example, it's been years since I've picked up my drawing pad; I think the last time I had used it was back in 2005 or 2006. Now, to set everyone straight, I do not consider myself an artist in the drawing and painting realm; however, I do really enjoy the feeling of charcoal underneath my fingertips and the stroking of a paint brush in my hand. I love watching a blank canvas unfold into a masterpiece (with many mistakes along the way of course...).

Long-story-short, I ended making a mess with my charcoals and 16x24 drawing pad, but I am so glad I did. It doesn't take long for me to realize why I love working with artsy mediums; for me, any art-media has a way for letting me decompress, relax, grow, etc., but even more importantly, it has a way of making me feel closer to my Heavenly Father. I think it boils down to the fact that when I take a break from my mundane schedule and allow myself to unwind and be transparent through art, it's an act of worship. To many people, worship is a congregational activity, but Jesus is quoted in John 4:24 saying "God is spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth." So in my opinion, worship is a heart matter, not a corporate meeting. Worship is an act of praising or rejoicing in God; giving credit and honor to where it is due. Therefore, when my heart is rejoicing because of words being sung from my mouth (in a congregation or not), let it be called worship, but also, if my heart is rejoicing unto the Lord because I am marveling at his beautiful creation, twiddling with drawing utensils or writing a blog post, let it also be called worship. "My heart is steadfast, O God; I will sing praises, even with my soul" - Psalms 108:1. "For great is the Lord, and greatly to be praised" - Psalms 96:4a.